Baby C.- The Story

(8-2-2013) 

As most of you probably recall, my last post talked about how Matt and I were disappointed but trying to accept that we didn't think more children were in our future. Then, all of a sudden, last week we announced we were expecting Baby #2 (well technically #3 but we'll just say #2 to avoid confusion...) Many people have said, "What happened?!?!" Hopefully this post will answer that question!

The last post was a reflection of how difficult things had been since the middle of March for our family. Following all of Matt's health issues, we decided it would be best if we stopped trying for more kids and just accepted that maybe Maddie would be our only child. It was disheartening, but it just seemed like the right decision. That was May 11th.

May 12th was Mother's Day and I had a good time celebrating with my little family. Monday rolled around like every other and Maddie and I headed off to the store to pick up a few items while Matt was home working the day shift. Now, I will spare most of the details, but I will say this much. For the past two and a half years, I have avoided alcohol and any medication that I knew was "unsafe" for anyone who was pregnant unless I was "certain" it was "safe" to consume these things. Well, while Maddie and I were out shopping, I started to not feel the greatest and really wanted to take Ibuprofen (come on, we all know Tylenol does nothing for no one...just kidding...kind of.) Not wanting to wait until I knew it was safe, I picked up a pregnancy test and after returning home, promptly took it. I was fully expecting it to say "Not Pregnant" like it had for the past 24+ months and was prepared to grab that bottle of painkillers. Boy was I surprised when I picked it up and it said "Pregnant!" I think Matt was about as stunned as I was...but isn't that just how God works?

The last few months have been anything but smooth sailing, but through each and every hurdle we have faced in this pregnancy, God has seen us through. Today I had my 16 week appointment and baby seems to be doing well...strong heart beat and very active! 

Despite my anxiety regarding this pregnancy and some of the complications I have faced so far, I am constantly being reminded that God knit this child together and He can sustain it if He so chooses. I am so glad He is in control because things would be a mess if it were up to me!

As I reflect on all that has happened since May, the song "Beautiful Things" by Gungor comes to mind. Take a listen here. Below are the lyrics:

"Beautiful Things" -Gungor

"All this pain

I wonder if I’ll ever find my way

I wonder if my life could really change at all

All this earth

Could all that is lost ever be found

Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of the dust

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of us

All around

Hope is springing up from this old ground

Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of the dust

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of the dust

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new

You make me new, You are making me new

You are making me new..."

I will wrap up this post by saying that Maddie is so excited to be a big sister. A friend recently gave us our car seat back and I found that Maddie was "practicing" with her baby Bella. And yes, those are dinosaurs. Maddie's life wouldn't be complete without them.